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DRAMA SUCKS ASS. All of my friends are just.. AHHHH! High school is tearing us apart! JESUS! You know what. I dont even fucking care anymore. All this drama over boys and friends and the juniors and what the fuck ever, I'M SICK OF IT AND IT'S IMMATURE AND CHILDISH! People have to talk behind each others backs and walk off in damn pairs and god SAY IT TO THEIR FACE. When I ask you a question, don't walk away and be immature and childish about it, JUST ANSWER THE DAMN QUESTION!!!! Oh my god, I felt like screaming at the top of my lungs last night and just tell everyone to stop their bitching, drop everything, and START ALL OVER! God, none of us can get along for like 5 seconds.. just 5 seconds.. someone is always getting into an argument. God, it's overwhelming and... I don't know it's just too much... for me. Too much. I think me and Kelsie pretty much feel the same, but I don't know about everyone else. I'm just sick of everyone having shit with each other. It's immature and so elementary. GOD! I just wanna go to school, get good grades, graduate in 2009 with at least a 3.8 gpa, and go to a good college and get a great career! I DON'T NEED DRAMA WITH IT!!! I just need focus.. in school.. NOT DRAMA. Man.. I'm over this shit.. period.
-Alicia-
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[14 Aug 2005|01:21am] |
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Hey. Man, I haven't been able to keep up with this thing these days, but then yet, I can't even keep up with myself. Life is flying by with every tick of the second hand and gosh.. it seems like just yesterday I was interacting with some of the best people in the world, now all I have is drama and bullshit. Well I don't have time to waste my life away anymore. I will succeed and get a great career when I get older and in a way, I know that.
Kayla in California: GOSH! I miss you with all of my freaking heart and I wish I could be there for you for everything you're going through because I used to be, but now I'm not. I've been pretty sucky at being a good long distance friend over the past couple of months, but I want you to know that I haven't forgotten about you cuz I think about you everyday and I keep you in my prayers every night. I miss you.
Ms. Kayla Dahlen herself: Goodness girl, if I could go back to 2 hour talks with you on the phone and 1 minute conversations with your mom, I would in a heartbeat. We lost contact with each other and I miss you with all of my heart and I hope you're reading this. You stay in my thoughts and most of the time I wonder if you're okay or if you're still going through you're family issues. Most of the time I hope you're okay and I have not forgotten you either, but I hope you know I'll always be here for you.
Gosh. I haven't talked to Drea since like January and I miss her. I've changed over the past couple of months, but definetly for the better. I've realized that I need to embrace life and live it while I can cuz you only get this opportunity once. Not only that, but you're only young once, so why waste wanting to kill myself or waking up everyday wishing I would die. I want to have a good life and live like everday is the best day of my life and like there is no tomorrow. I want to be with my friends and family as long as I can be and keep a good head on to succeed in my future. These past couple of years have been a learning experience. I know my limits and I've definetly come out of my dark stage, but you go through everything for a reason, and if I survived through that, I know God has a better plan for me and I know I've tried hard to better myself and I'm proud that I've finally have. I've overcome another obstacle in my life with more ahead of me, but I know I'm gonna make it.
<33 AliciaRenee.
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[10 Jun 2005|09:34pm] |
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Derek is back. <33
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[04 Jun 2005|07:41pm] |
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Heyy. I'm at my sister's house using her computer right now. :)
Um.. I probably won't be online for a while after this cuz my sister and her friend broke our computer so now I'm waiting to get it fixed.
<33 Alicia
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[15 May 2005|09:19pm] |
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So, I'm really gonna update this time.
I went shopping yesterday and blahh. I got new shoes and jeans and a
new The Beatles shirt... fucking awesome. I got 2 new belts too. Now I
have like 6 million belts. lol. I'm losing weight.. um yay.
But anyway, Derek comes back in like 2 weeks and I'm excited.
Schools still a drag and out June 16th. I went to the Carnival (OV Fest)
on Friday with my 2 best friends Nina and Kelsie and Ryan, Eamonn, and
Kyle. Drama up the ass with Ryan and some dumb ass boy named Eddie, but
whatever, I hope it's over or else someone is gonna end up in a body
bag.
I'm gonna start going to the tanning bed so I can get a tan and I'm
gonna get my hair colored hopefully this coming weekend and if not, the
next because my hair is getting longer. It's looks plain since it's
just black and you know.. I got used to having different colors in my
hair. I'm probably gonna get my nails done too. Everybody keeps
tellling me I'm changing, but I don't think so.
My allergies were really bad yesterday. I think I almost died.
I miss my mom. But I'm going to her house this weekend and shes gonna buy me a bathing suit.. gag.
Anyway... I'm gonna go shopping again probably next weekend. I' gonna buy some leg warmers and high heels. Man... I LOVE the 80's. I'm gonna get this pink frilly skirt with black lace under it that shows on the bottom and it has white polka dots on it. MMMMMM. haha.
Well.. I actually don't think that's a good entry, but that's the longest it's been in like the past 2 months. So.. here's an ugly picture.
<33 Alicia.
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Same broken heart, just a different day.
This time... I got it <3 broken badddd. </3
AliciaRenee.</3
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[03 May 2005|07:53pm] |
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My big brother. <3 ((who I dearly miss))
Come home soon.
<//3 Alicia.
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[02 May 2005|07:27pm] |
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Me and My Brother Derek.
Looking at that face always made me laugh.
He was standing on his tippy toes to show me how tall he'd be when he comes back
I miss my big brother
and my best friend! Everyone misses you Derek and we all hope you come
home soon. I love you to death and everyone back here misses you and
loves you with all their heart!!!.
<//3 Alicia.
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New layout that I did myself.
:)
<33 Alicia
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[19 Apr 2005|11:17pm] |
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&& today;; he told me he loves me.
::blushes::
<33 Alicia
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Hey everyone.
Sorry I havent updated in a while.
I've been really busy.
But please don't take me off you guys' friends list.
Comment if you have something to tell me or something like that.
Love to all;;<33;;Alicia
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Does anyone want to help me change my LJ layout?
x3 Alicia
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The headaches just keep getting worse..
x3 Alicia
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[05 Mar 2005|10:33pm] |
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Sorry I haven't updated in a looong time. All this shit
has been going on and I can hardly seem to keep up with my school work.
Well.. on the 22nd of Feb. I went to the Taste of Chaos and The Used, My Chemical Romance, and Senses Fail were too awesome and so was Underoath. It was alot of fun.
Last night was Wendy's party. I always complain about drama and how
people always cry over how their feelings are hurt or whatever, but
what did I do last night at her party.. I cried. I was sitting at the
table watching everyone together in the den and I started thinking
about alot of things. I decided to go for a walk because I didn't want
anyone to see me mad or depressed or anything, so I walked outside and
I went the opposite direction that everyone else was in, but it turned
out there were people in the direction I turned so I decided I would
just walk down the street coming up, but then Nina got to me fast and I
was already crying. Ryan and Derek thought one of the Norview boys was
messing with me and they were ready to fight someone cuz they thought
someone was messing with me. I guess I just kept stuff so bottled up
that seeing everyone happy together and me sitting alone kind of
triggered my emotions or thoughts or whatever. My thing is is that I'm
just so miserable here and I'm praying that Lisa can get custody
of me so I can move to California. I feel so uncomfortable around my
own friends and I feel like I shouldn't be with them. I feel like
everything I do is wrong since thats what I'm told all the time and I'm
getting physically sick from all of this emotional pain. I put on ten
pounds and I feel so fucking ugly and fat and god.. why the fuck is
this happening to me. I'm not happy and I'm tired of pretending. I'm
tired of trying to be someone I'm not.. I'm scared that if I'm myself
then none of my friends are gonna like me... they want to see me happy,
so that what I give them.. a fake smile wrapped in a pretty pink bow..
but thats not me. Bottom line; I think I'm fat and ugly, I feel alone
on everything, and I'm so fucking miserable that my emotional pain is
taking a toll on me physically. I can't concentrate in school and I'm
failing all my classes and everyone is disappointed in me. God... how did I get so far away this time?
//Alicia//
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I'm at Wendy's house with her and Nina! I <3333 them alot x's 964364983593492578934275923475897237!
Well.. I'm off. Goodbye for the day my little lovekins!
BAYSIDE = LOVE <33
x3 Alicia
::Gaze into her killing jar I'd sometimes stare for hours::
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[14 Feb 2005|09:05pm] |
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Happy Valetines Day all... even though I hate it. lol. My mommy got me a valentines gift yesterday! and my dad took me out to dinner tonight! Man.. I feel special.
Anyway.. Sam's party was on Saturday and it was weak. lol. Tyler, Kyle, and Carl have a band and they all sound really good together.. and plus I love all three of them so yeah.. they're my boys! Tylers really good on the guitar too. Me and Nick were wrestling in Sam's backyard and omg.. he got so beat. lol. Wendy has this one picture when we were wrestling and I was on the ground and he was too and his crotch was in my face. lol. Then Kyle was sitting on my lap and he was plunging my forehead. lol. I was soo weak. I have pictures, but I'll post them once I get them up on photobucket. Then I spent the night at Kelsies with Wendy, Nina, and Adriana. That was a lot of fun. "Eggs, Drinks, and Swings." lol. It was so much fun.
Slept all day sunday! Felt good too.
Today was okay. It rained.. SCORE! I wrote Chris a note and told him sorry for not coming to his house. :( I felt bad cuz I promised him I would, but then I didnt. Then at the bottom it said "P.S. ♥Christopher my dear, I love you, will you be my Valentine?♥" and he gave me this folded up sheet of paper and right dead center in the middle it said "I love you too Alicia and yes I'll be your Valentine." I was like awwwwww thats cute!
Anyway, I'm selling a whole bunch of Good Charlotte stuff... if you want something then you can subscribe to Lip Service. Its my little zine thing, just e-mail me at CuteAngelGirl104@aol.com and put Lip Service in the subject and let me know what you want to know. lol.
TASTE OF CHAOS IS NEXT TUESDAY!!!!!!
..If this is what you want, then Fire at Wil1...
//♥//Alicia//&hearts//
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N*Sync
"Here We Go"
Here we go one more time
Everybody's feeling fine
Here we go now
Yes yes yes here we go
'N SYNC has got the flow
Bounce your head to the beat
We've got everything you need
Here we go now
Yes yes yes here we go
'N SYNC has got the flow
Here we go just one more time
And everybody is feeling fine
Here we go now
Here we go, yeah
If you want to party with us
Just feel free and feel the rhythm
Here we go now
Here we go
You know the party's here
Sing - a - long and have no fear
'N SYNC is here to make you people scream
Now the the time for us to reunite
Come on party people
There's a party going on tonight
Tonight is the night
Everything is going to be alright
Just get up, feel the flow
And here we go
CHORUS
Let's sing it one more time
Everybody's feeling fine
We got the skills
To keep this party pumpin' baby
Keep dancin' all night long
Until the break of dawn
Come on party people
There's a party going on tonight
Tonight is the night
Everything is gonna be alright
Just get up, feel the flow
And here we go
HAHAHAHA DONT HATE BITCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! N*Syncs first CD is the shit.. hahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!
N*Sync
"I want you Back"
You're all I ever wanted
You're all I ever needed, yeah
So tell me what you do now
Cause [I, I, I, I, I,]I want you back
It's hard to say I'm sorry
It's hard to make the things I did undone
A lesson I've learned too well, for sure
So don't hang up the phone now
I'm trying to figure out just what to do
I'm going crazy without you
You're all I ever wanted
You're all I ever needed, yeah
So tell me what to do now
When I want you back
Baby I remember,
The way you used to look at me and say
Promises never last forever
I told you not to worry
I said that everything will be alright
I didn't know than that you were right
You're all I ever wanted
You're all I ever needed, yeah
So tell me what to do now
When I want you back
I want you back
You're the one I want
You're the one I need
Girl what can I do?
You're the one I want
You're the one I need
Tell me what can I do
You're all I ever wanted
[You're the one I want] You're all I ever needed
[You're the one I want] So tell me what to do now
When I want you back
You're all I ever wanted
You're all I ever needed
So tell me what to do now
When I want you back
WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!!!!!!!!
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[06 Feb 2005|09:28pm] |
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I went to the mall today with my sisters. I bought my ticket to the TASTE OF CHAOS! I'm so excited to go on the 22nd. Too bad it's on a school day cuz we cant get there that early. It starts at 7.. so the gates are probably gonna open around 6:30 and we'll get there by 4. School lets out at 2:45, we all get home around 3:05, 3:10.. so yeah.. we'll get there around 4.
But anyway.. we saw Hide and Seek today. It was an OKAY movie.. the whole concept of it reminded me of the movie The Secret Window. I didnt jump in any parts so ya know... wasnt bad at all. I was gonna go in Hot Topic to see if Jasmine was working but my sister Rachelle doesnt like that store. She's like 23 and she's not into the same things I am but shes suuuper funny. I love her. My sister Annabelle is 18 and she likes going into Hot Topic.. me and her are both into the same things and we usually go to concerts together, but lately we've been going with our friends. My sister Lisa who lives in Cali is 24 and she likes going to Hot Topic. She's not into punk or anything like that, but she thinks they have cute clothes. So yeah.. she can spend like 2 hours in there with me when shes here and she'll let her son run around. lol.
So I have to go back to school tomorrow.. for the whole day.. all drug free. :) I hate school. BUT.. I'll go anyway and give it a shot. No more staying home for me unless I absolutely need to. *coughs* I'll probably stay back on Wednesday for Mr. Dunton to catch up on what we did cuz his class is the only class I care about.
Well anyway.. maybe I'll update tomorrow about Friday and Saturday.
♥ x-Alicia-o ♥
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